crazier - taylor swift

ps : it's my last post. this blog is officially close. :D

who?

J to the E to the R to K yawww

Now I Realize That I Miss You

it's so sad that you give up so soon. one simple test but you cant get an A for it.
I miss you, khairy azmi.

Happy Ramadhan

HAPPY FASTING ! :DD
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HAPPY HOLIDAYS !

BIRTHDAY SPOILER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IRA,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

There's this girl at my school. Okay, let's call her X for short. She's pretty annoying to me band to the others too. She like to pukul buntut orang and tarik tali bra, scream and shout for no reason, jumping here and there. In another word, she's not perfect, like me (:

One day, she's irritating me. By shouting at the canteeen, which at that moment, i can't stand her. Then, i went upstairs and leave her there. I went straight to the classroom and wrote a letter for her. The letter said how much annoying she is, how much i hate it, i'm sick, i need space, keep her distance from me. That's all. And i'm sure everyone have read the letter since she's very kepoh-ing. She told almost like everyone in the school, showing how innocence she is and how bad am i. Unfortunate for her, people is still on my side.

She let her sister read the letter (i think). Today, which is MY BIRTHDAY, X's sister called me. She just wants to talk. I understand how she felt as a sister. But the sister's friend is seriously irritating me. She didn't even say it, she shout it. Fyi, dia yang lebih lebih. Please, it's not YOUR problem. NOTE IT! The sister said something that she's been crying at home, people dont want to be friends with X, X wants to transfer school, X dont want to go to school, and it's a bit menyusahkan family. But the sister's friend shout something that i've cursing X, which is sooo NOT TRUE! I'm the one who starts everything, I'm the one why people dont want to be friends with X, I'm the one who made X be like that. and yadda yadda yadda.

Sorry, i dont have conclusion to it. I dont know what does X said to her sister. Note this people! I'm a very open person, if you dont how i am, then dont tell me how to roll. If it's not YOUR problem stay away. If you dont know the whole story, jangan nak serbu orang jewp, you're not a secret agent. JERK!

THANK YOU FOR SPOILING MY BIRTHDAY!

Birthday wishes to :

Azim ( August 10)

Syaz (August 12)
*aku suka rambut kau. HAHA

SENIOR SEKALIAN

Kepada sesiapa yang makan cili terasa lah pedasnya,

First of all aku nak tanya apa masalah kau? Adakah kau memang tunggu saat saat aku tumbuk muka kau betol betol ke atau, ntah lah! Kenapa kau tak puas hati sangat dengan mak aku sampai aku sekali kena? Sebab mak aku tangkap kau ponteng? Bodoh! Yang kau pergi ponteng buat apa! Sebab hisap rokok? Bebal! Yang kau pergi hisap rokok kat skola asal?

Aku jalan depan kelas kau, pergi ke libraray, ketawa dengan kawan aku, kau reject aku, aku diam.
Aku speaking dengan kawan aku, kau reject aku lagi, aku diam.
Aku cakap dengan kawan aku, kau kutuk aku depan depan, aku diam.
Aku berbual dengan kawan kau, kau reject aku lagi, dengan kawan kau sekali kena, aku diam.
Aku tengah kawad, ajar budak aku, dengan budak budak aku sekali kena reject dengan kau, aku diam.
Aku dapat anugerah sini sana, kau reject aku, tak pe, aku diam.
Aku main piano depang orang ramai, kau 'boo' aku, aku buat pekak jewp.
Aku jalan sorang sorang, kau kutuk, reject, maki hamun aku, aku diam.

If nak aku list memang panjang, for sure sampai minggu depan tak habis. Because benda ni from aku jejak kaki kat sekola ni. Since form1! dah 4 TAHUN okayyy. Kau tak serik an? Kau tahu tak hari hari aku pergi sekola kau buat macam ini? Tension. Semua aku buat tak kena dengan kau. Aku tak pernah ganggu kau pon. Bercakap dengan kau pon tak. Kau tak matang langsung. Tak proffessional.

Kau kutuk, maki hamun, reject aku, aku diam jewp. Kawan aku nak jewp sound kau balik, tapi tak apa, kau dah tak betol. Aku biar kan jewp. Kau kutuk mak aku, depan aku lagi, aku diam jewp. Tak de pon aku melenting tiba tiba, Aku tak marah pon kau. Tapi kau lebih lebih. Hello! Mak aku ajar kau seni okay! Mak aku yang bertungkus lumus nak bagi kau lulus. In fact, nak bagi A1 lagi. Tak kenang jasa langsung. Memang patut pon PMR kau fail. Tengok muka memang tak layak ah dapat A1

Aku nak kata kau kacak, Tak kacak langsung! Badan besar, kaki kecik! Tak sedar diri! Pandai? HAHAHA. Tak pandai langsung! Hari hari kau masuk library buat bising, ganggu orang lain, main handphone, kknon nya phone dia lah yang paling up-to-date. Barrrjeeeettttt! Kau ada ke masa depan weyhh??

Orang lain okay jewp dengan aku, kau jewp yang tak betol rasanya. Pergi lah hospital, buat check up. Duhhh. Sedarlah weyhh! Kau tak sehebat mana pon. Aku nangis sebab aku dah tak tahan bukan menyerah.

PS : Semoga kau lulus dengan CEMERLANG untuk SPM kau!

Sekian, terima kasih.

Redah Berapi

Each day gone with just by a blink of an eye. It's almost three weeks since tahu pasal this whole penyakit stuff, very thin blood vessels in the brain that can lead to difficulties. Each day, each second gone, I've tried to be strong, to moving on, to pretend like there's nothing going on. Yeah, it's very hard.

People around me is being nice all of sudden. People stare at me with full of sympathy. People that are ignoring me suddenly, talk to me like a very good friend. People that hate me/talk bad things about me, they stopped. Yes, weird, awkward, bizarre, pelik, aneh.

Friends are being a little bit overprotective. That's because they care and love me. I know that. No need to remind me all the time. I get closer and closer to my classmates and friends. And i loike it. Hehe. They are good in cheering me up! They always make me laugh. Never let me down. Always be there when i need to talk to. Hehe. Awww. I love you guys :')

Ohh! For all of your guys info, I've to go for counselling. It's twice sudah. It was okay so far. The counseller tried so hard to know every of my drity little secrets. She always asked me, "Apa yang awak nak sorok kan dari saya?" HAHA. Sorry. She's very dissapointed with me. ((:

I don't know why she called me for counselling. Maybe it's time for me to reveal everything since i've keep it for so many years now. Maybe God knows that I can't keep it anymore. Maybe the time has come to let the whole world know. Maybe it's time to tell 'him' everything, the truth. Maybe it's better to be this way. Or. Maybe it's time for a change and stand up straight to face everything. And i'm not strong enough to face it now. It gets more complicated each day. And the time will come. (:

Listening to The Lucky Laki, Bukan Superman :D

PS : Today ktorg menang pertandingan kawad kaki! Johann! Woot woot! Never underestimated the losers. LOL. Happy ((:

100th POST!

wow! dah sampai 100! Lame. HAHA. Like i care ada berapa post in my blog.

Since my birthday is coming up, as usual! Jengjengjeng

My wishlist:

Nikon D80 ((:

This Pretty Handbag. I want it, pleaseeee! ((:

Twilight saga Hardcover (:

New Phoneeee :DD

PS : Ayah, if you dont want to buy me the D80. Pleasee dont buy me a mug like you gave to kakak. I'm not gonna used it. It's a waste. Buy something that i will used, like the D80 ((: Please and thank youuu.

Deep Inside My Heart

Deep inside my heart, i know i miss you. A lot.
Deep inside my heart, i know i need you. All the time.
Deep inside my heart, i know you're my first and my last.
Deep inside my heart, i know i love you. Although i don't admit it.
Deep inside my heart, i miss when we talk, we walk together.
Deep inside my heart, i miss when you say I Love You to me.
Deep inside my heart, i always want you here by my side.
Deep inside my heart, i want you back, to be mine. I regret for the past.
Deep inside my heart, i know my heart will going fast when you staring at me.
Deep inside my heart, i feel jealous when your friend told me about you and your new girlfriend.
Deep inside my heart, i always hope any call or text from you.
Cause I'm Deeply Madly Truly love you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you.
Thanks, you made me to the old me.

Live Like You're Dying

One of these days you’ll be
under the covers you’ll be
under the table and you’ll realize
that all of your days are numbered;
all of them one to one hundred.
All of them millions.
All of them trillions.
So what are you gonna do with them all?
You can not trade them in for mall.
no no

Take every moment; you know that you own them.
It’s all you can do, use what’s been given to you.

Give me a reason
to fight the feeling
that there’s nothing here for me.
Cause none of its easy,
I know it wasn’t meant to be.
I know it’s all up to me.
It's all up to me.
So what am I gonna do with my time?
oh

Ill take every moment, I know that I own them.
It’s all up to you to do whatever you choose.

Live like you’re dying and never stop trying.
It’s all you can do, use what’s been given to you.

All of the moments you didn’t notice;
gone in the blink of an eye.
And all of the feelings you couldn’t feel
no matter how you try.
oh oh

Take every moment; you know that you own them.
It’s all up to you,
to do whatever you choose.

Live like you’re dying and never stop trying.
It’s all you can do, use what’s been given to you.

Live like you’re dying and never stop trying.
It’s all up to you, use what’s been given to you.

oh oh

Kekecewaan

At last, the doctor's know what's wrong with me. Something wrong with the blood vessel in the brain. Sangat nipis. Anytime, can affect the brain then, affect the whole body and my action. Tapi doktor kata skang tak akan kena maybe when i'm get older. Just andaian dia larh. Then, ada benda yang tak bole buat. They are :

1-Tak bole kena panas
2-Tak bole pergi plkn (which is yayyy! HAHA)
3-Tak bole tension
4-Tak bole too pressure
5-Tak bole rock climbing or abesiling
6-Tak bole main bola (except netball)
7-Tak bole main heavy sports
8-Tak bole marah marah (emotionless, i think =.=)
9-Tak bole lari sini sana
10-Tak bole lompat lompat dah

There's more, but tak ingat. If tak ikot ada larh side effect nya. Nanti satu badan lemah. Muntah. Nak berkomunikasi dengan orang susah. Haihhh.

Macam orang tak ada life kan? Banyak sangat tak bole buat. Sedihh dowhh. Sape yang nak sakit kan? Semua orang tak nak. Dah larh banyak kelas Ira tertinggal. Ira nanges cerita dekat Amin. But, itu lah namanya kehidupan or ujian dari ALLAH. T_T

Sometimes, I asked myself why me? and sometimes, why not me? Haihh. Be positive Ira. Be strong DD: